What a weekend !!

It has been a horrible weekend. Friday I came home to my husband drinking. He was on a tangent about the UPS man. I couldn't understand why he was getting so upset. I mean the guy didn't show up so just relax. I was so pissed at him. I mean why does he have to drink every Friday. I mean are you that dependent on alcohol. Trying to talk to him is like talking to the four walls. He is always Mr. Know it all. I mean I don't understand this. I hate that Donovan has to be around this. I mean I want Donovan to have someone around who doesn't drink to get through stress. I just want to scream. I just don't understand Scott. I mean he has other issues, but I just don't know about putting that on here. Like it matters. I just continue to pray.

Saturday my baby girl turned 18. I can't believe she is a beautiful young lady. I am so proud of her I just can't express it. She is everything I dreamed she would be and she is definitely going to achieve her goals. I sent her two dozen roses for her birthday. She loves them. I did text her at midnight to wish her a Happy Birthday. She told me since she was 18 she bought a scratch off. LOL. I thought that was funny.
My day got worse to find out on facebook that my grandparents headstone was spray painted. I don't know who did it but that is absolutely evil. I hope they get what is coming to them. It is just depressing for that to happen.

Then today. I am so mad with Scott over other issues that I have failed to post on here. I then have to deal with drinking again. He can't understand that I would think it is cool to be drinking this much. I mean I wish I could drink all the time, but someone has to be sober for Donovan. The sad thing is when Donovan sees a beer bottle or can, he says that is daddy's. Are you kidding me? I mean what the heck. Even God took a day off for rest.

I am so glad I went to church. The things that are being shared at church is what I need to hear. I wish Scott would think about going to church. I wish he would quit drinking. I mean I am sure his liver is not in the best of shape.

I need to re evaluate things in my life. That includes my marriage. I have changed some things with work.

God help me make it through the week.

Exhausted of the blah blah blah blah.

Today is Friday and I haven't blogged since Wednesday. I have a lot to share and a lot to keep to myself. I wish I could blog it, but there is just somethings you just need to keep to yourself and God.

Wednesday my precious little boy went to the doctor. I finally got him to the doctor since his speech testing. The diagnostician thinks Donovan's congestation is making Donovan's speech difficult. He snores like a bear, and he breaths through his mouth. Bless his little heart. So the nurse took Donovan's temp, blood pressure, checked his heart, etc. Donovan was so happy. Just the best little one. Then Dr. Kravitz came in and checked his adnoids. They are a little swollen. Then we talked. Dr. Kravitz decided to have a x ray done on his adnoids and then a blood test. Now the x ray and blood test I was not sure how Donovan would do. Dr. Kravitz said we would see the results and go from there. I hope nothing serious. I just want to know he will not need any type of surgery. We go to get the x ray and Donovan was great. However, we did the blood test. I told the nurse the last time Donovan needed blood taken he was held down by 4 people. She asked how old he was I told her. She said oh he will be ok. Well I held my little doodlebug. He was trying to see what the nurse was doing. Well we thought it was all clear and she stuck him. My poor baby was crying. I started to cry too. I hate to see my son in any pain or crying. Well the nurse had to pull the needle out because Donovan was so tense it was affecting the blood being drawn. So she asked if Scott could hold Donovan. Well after all that was said and done, Donovan did get the blood drawn. He was crying...."No want, no want" Poor baby. When he was finished they gave him stickers. As we were walking out, my baby says, this sucks. I nearly fell out. He was walking with both his arms sticking out that you would of thought we hurt him. After this we went to the Backyard Grill and had dinner. It was nice. Donovan got to play in the sandbox.

Thursday Donovan and I just sat around. He did the basketball game, and he was very good. We came home and did nothing.

Friday- Today seemed to be good, but I have been somewhat aggitated with the kids and things in general. I found out one of my students got in trouble. I will have to say a little prayer this sweet little boy. I made my one parent call. That was not fun, but it had to be done. I just don't understand why boys don't think before they do stuff. Then after work I went to help Charlotte with her grandmother's house. Poor girl, has so much to do, and no one to really help her without wanting something in return. It is sad family can be so greedy.

The doctor's office called me today. They informed me they received the x ray results. His adnoids are swollen and he will need to take the prescription they are calling in for him. Also his white blood count was a little high. I hope these precautions will help with him

I came home tonight to the same blah blah blah. When is enough alcohol enough. I am so tired of Donovan having to see this. I don't remember ever growing up dealing with seeing my parents drink. I mean drink till you are past out drunk. I will continue to pray that God will help me find a peace. I don't know how much more of this drinking I can take. I say this all the time, but eventually I will.

I am sitting here watching my little one asleep in the recliner. He is such a precious angel and hate that he doesn't see a father who is not drinking on a Friday. I am sure I will hear some dumb excuse. Ok, give me results not excuses. Besides I am tired of being told I will stop. That is just a lie.

Tomorrow is my precious angel Stephanie's 18th birthday. I ordered her flowers for her birthday. I can still remember the day she was born. She was a gift from God, and I am so glad that I was able to be her mom. I love her with all my life, and would do anything for her or Donovan. How did I get so lucky to have wonderful, funny children.I am sure tomorrow I will be crying. It just hurts that I can't be there to celebrate her birthday with her.

I guess I have blogged enough about my problems.

Tuesday at work

Today was a slow start to the day. Donovan was up at 3:30 because his daddy was. He stayed up watching television and I slept. I know bad. However, he lays right beside me wathcing Tom and Jerry this morning. I am so glad he climbs over me to get out of the bed, or I would never know when he gets up at times.

The morning classes were somewhat great. I had a small problem with the brochure the students are creating, but we fixed it. I think the students will enjoy the activity. I hope it goes over well. I will need to double check their work to make sure they do what they need to.

This afternoon my workshop classes were great. I did rotation with my students and it went well. I really do like this group of students. I so want to see them succeed. I will say a special prayer over them everyday. I know they will do great on TAKS.

I actually left work early today. Yeah! I don't leave early very often but this time it was very early.

Made an appointment for Donovan. The doctor will check his adnoids to see if this is effecting his speech and articulation. While I am in there I will discuss his umbilical hernia. I hope things can get fixed. I pray Donovan doesn't need to get his anoids out. I will cry like a baby.

Oh well another day and another night. Things are looking great for the first month of 2010.

Monday ....Working but not working

Today was my day to relax and meet with a friend for lunch today. Donovan was so sweet this morning, but didn't want to go to daycare. My sweet little angel.

I met with my friend Stephanie today. Stephanie's school will be doing PBIS at their school She wanted my notes and stuff that I had for PBIS. It was just nice telling her how it works at our school and the big changes we have since the new administration. It was great.

Stephanie had a great lunch at The Black Walnut Cafe in the Woodlands. Great food. I had the Greek Salad. It was so good. It was really hard for me stay good. I was wanting to eat something fatty, but didn't. So I was excited to be able to hold out on temptation. Yeah!!!

I came home and made a new recipe. I did stuffed manicotti shells. It was stuffed with spinach, mozzarella, and ricotta cheese. I am sure I can do a low fat one, but didn't. I should of, but only had two and I am sure that was not good. However, I restrained myself from eating any more.
As soon as this show is over I am going to make some WW cookies. I will see how they turn out. I really should go to bed, but I want to make them.

I am not wanting to go back to work. I have enjoyed my vacations days so much. I can't wait for the summer to come. I want to spend it with my precious little one and my other precious one before she heads to college.

Sunday....Sunday...Sunday.

Today has been a great day. At least in my eyes. Donovan and I were able to go to church today. Great lesson today. Mark talked about getting FITT-Emotionally, Physically, Spiritually. I am so excited about the next 12 weeks, I just don't know what to say. I did sign up for the daily devotionals. I can't wait to get a daily motivation. Get it on.

Donovan had a mental breakdown. We went to Walgreens to get a few of their sales items. Donovan say the toy section. I told him no and we continued around the store. I mean I ignored the toy thing. I told him I would get him some candy. He was ok with that, but as we were getting ready to leave which was past the toy stuff, he wanted the toy. He kept asking and I said no. I told him we got him a toy yesterday. He was not hearing it. He was whining behind me. Then we get to the checkout and he cries for the toy. When I tell him no he just throws himself down. I told him to get up. I did tell him he had 3 seconds to get up or I was going to put the candy up. I guess he didn't believe me. So I counted, and I did it slowly thinking he would stop. Ha....that was not happening. So I popped his butt and put up his candy. Well that just made him mad. I paid for my stuff and went to the car. He cried like I had just killed him. I mean I have seen Donovan cry but not like that. I felt bad, but good grief he can't get things all the time. I know that is my fault. I have given into my children, and I can't help it. I just try to do my best to give them what I can. Sometimes I go overboard. I know I should stop. I will.

Made dinner tonight. It was not the best thing. It was Pork Loin with sweet potatoes and apples. Now the apples were good, but the sweet potatoes and pork loin were ok. I am not sure I would say great, but edible. I did do a great little dessert. I made a box of jello pudding. The flavor was Turtle. It was good. I put them in parfait dishes with lite whipped topping. It was so good.

I have finished about 2/3 of my book The 8th Confession by James Patterson. It is starting to get good. I have missed reading. I hope to make this part of my evening routine. There are so many things I want to do. I just don't know if I have time.

Just a wonderful day today.

Just another weekend

I am sitting here wondering why we put up with things that we really shouldn't have to as an adult. Just something to think about.



I am so glad I have a three day weekend. I need the rest from a hard week at school and home. I am wondering how to rejuvenate myself from the week. I plan on just resting, resting, resting. Now how am I going to do it.



Today I want to just relax. I want to stop by the resale shop. I hope to find a new pair of pants, or a nice blouse. I was hoping to do something fun with my family, but don't think that is going to happen. I will have to go run and do something so I have something to write on here. Hopefully something exciting.

Well it is 10 pm and I am sitting watching the news. I know the purpose of the news is to inform us of what is going on in the world. However, it is so sad to hear what is going on in Haiti. I sit here and wish I could help them out. The children of Haiti are sad to see and to hear their stories. Hopefully this will past soon and Haitians can get things in some type of order, but I know that will take time.

I did my grocery shopping tonight. Did pretty good. I am dying to know how much money we will save. I know Donovan has cut down on milk. That helps. That boy could drink milk. I say too much, but at times that is all he would do. He is drinking more juice and water.

I need to find a hobby to stop me from playing games on the computer. It really sucks because it is so easy to just plop on the couch and play games. Before the desktop was not anywhere comfortable so I would not stay online long.

Oh well another day down. Next Saturday I will have a lot to look back on. Stephanie will be 18.

Sunday...Football and Rest

I have not blogged for several days. I have not been feeling too well. I guess I need to make an appointment with Dr. Benge. The last time I had this type of pain Scott had to take me to the emergency room not fun. It feels like I have a knife in my side turning at times. Saturday I just sat around. Actually I laid around. Scott took care of Donovan and I this week and it has been great.

I laid around again today. I started my power point for the faculty meeting on Wednesday. I had to put the data in the powerpoint. I think it looks good. However, I have to add more things. I am so dreading this meeting. I have not even done the agenda.

I have really done absolutely nothing today. I did get my grocery list done for my shopping trip this weekend. I need to find recipes that are healthy. I am not sure if I did a great job on it, but will try. I also need some sweet treats that are not fatty or put the fat on me.

Donovan has been funny today. He kept telling me he loved me, if I was his friend, and give a big hug. He is such a sweet boy. However tell him no and he turns into a evil child. I just adore him and love him to death. He is definitely my little man.

On Friday I did pay Stephanie's deposit for the dorm. I am trying to figure out how I will cut spending money. I just want to save money for her college. The dorm is 8 thousand dollars I have to figure out how we are going to pay that and come up with the money. God will provide.

Speech Testing

Today Donovan was tested for speech. He did qualify. He has a slight problem. The tester noticed that his articulation was a little difficult to understand. Also that he was congested and that is not helping his articulation. Donovan did great.

Classes were great. I am so tired that I really can't keep my eyes open. I will write more tomorrow.

First day at work

Oh my word. What a boring morning of inservice? I seriously think that the presenter was a consultant for Mac Computers. I mean that is all he talked about when it came to technology. Ok too bad we don't have mac's in the classroom. I think me and a few co workers played "I Spy", counted how many times certain people asked question. We watched another person sleeping. We also texted one of the AP's to see why they were not in the inservice suffering like the rest of us.

Now if the inservice would of showed us the technology and how a classroom incorporated it, I would of been more receiving. I just heard a lot of talk, and not much on what we could do with it. I would of loved examples.

Now the second part of the inservice day was awesome. My ex mentor gave the inservice with one of her ex co workers. It was awesome. I took away a lot of stuff. I hope to incorporate it tomorrow. I can't wait. I really want to try to do more with the kids. Last semester was some what hard, but I plan on making this the best half of the year for them. I want them yearning for reading and dying to come to my class.

Tonight I went my friend Charlotte's grandmother's viewing. Her grandmother passed away. I feel so bad for her. She was her grandmother's caretaker. Charlotte was handling it well. I am sure tomorrow after the funeral it will hit her.

Now on to the little tornado that is running the household. He has a bad habit of throwing these horrible tantrums when he doesn't get what he wants. It is driving me crazy. Scott and I placed him in his room when he had a meltdown. He did stop eventually and ate dinner.

Tomorrow Donovan will be tested for speech. I am not sure how he will do, but hope he follows the directions that he is given. He doesn't interact well with people he doesn't know. Wish us luck.

Monday...work day

Today I got up to exercise for thirty minutes. I was a little worried I would not do it, but I am so excited I did. I will exercise again. Thank you again Fit TV. I will try a new exercise show tomorrow.

Went to work. I think we got a lot accomplished. We were able to complete the 6 weeks grid. I am excited about that. The six weeks is planned. So now I will do my reading workshop grid. It shouldn't take too long since there are several things I want to do with the kids.

After working I went to Walmart to get a few long sleeves shirts. I was hoping to find a waterproof matress pad, but they were a little expensive. I went to Anna's Linen. I found a new shower curtain, shower liner, and waterproof cover for the bed. Donovan had an accident in my bed and of course it was on my side of the bed. I can't deal with that anymore.

I am sitting at home watching The Bachelor. I am not sure about some of these cheesy girls. They so need to go home. I think it is going to be very catty. I am not sure who Jake is going to give the first impression rose to, but I think he needs to get rid of at least 15 girls.

I guess I should get things ready for tomorrow. Especially since it will be my second day of workout, getting Donovan's clothes ready, his lunch, and my stuff. I am not sure if I am going to make my lunch ready for tomorrow or not.

Sunday

Today started off wrong. I slept through my alarm and I was not happy. Donovan and I did not make it to church. I hate that we missed. I love Sunday's because I know we are going to church. I will watch the service online this week.

Donovan and I just vegged out today. We played, we did some laundry, and just had a great time. The laughter of a child makes me happy. He is such a cutie, but man does he have a temper. I wonder where he got that from. wink wink ;) ;)

I did stick to my diet most of the day. I made an awesome dinner for Scott. Chicken Enchilda casserole. My house smelled great.

The Cowboys and the Texans won. However after looking at the score of the Jets game, they will not be making it to the playoffs. That stinks. They so deserve to go.

Tonight I went out to dinner with Danielle. We laughed and talked for 3 hours. We talked about our kids. We are so proud of our children. It is just so nice to chat with someone that is not a coworker. It is just nice to laugh and not have any worries. Thanks Danielle.

On a sad note. My friend Charlotte called me this evening. Her grandmother passed away. I know her grandmother had been in poor health, but you always hope that can change. I will say a special prayer for her. Donovan called her grandma.

I am working on going to bed by 10:30. I have 22 minutes. I will wrap this up. Tomorrow is the beginning of the new work week.

Just a Lazy Day

Today we did absolutely nothing. Donovan and Dominic played for the day till Sarah came to get Dominic. She didn't stay long because she had the vehicle and Paul might need her for the day.

I watched the Cotton Bowl today. I was mostly watching to see if I could see Stephanie in the halftime parade. Scott and I think we might have seen her, but are not really sure.I did talk to Stephanie and she said her dad saw her on the Jumbotron. I so wish I could of seen it. I want to cry about that.

Donovan has been such a sweet holy terror, but he is my holy terror. I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that he needed a nap. I love to see him wake up from a nap. The innocent look that he has. I just want to bottle it up and keep it forever. I am not sure if I have a picture of that sweet face, but I will have to post one. I just did.

Tonight Scott and I watched Hangover. I thought it was ok, but not the most funniest movie I have seen. However Scott was snickering...that is the type of laugh he has most of the movie. It had way to many cus words. I am not a fan of cussing in movies. It makes me upset and I can't figure out why you need ot cus to make the movie better. Oh well. That is Hollywood.

I should be in bed, but I am watching Texas Tech vs. Michigan State. I am hoping that Michigan State wins, but Tech just scored. I am just not a fan of Tech since they fired Leach.

Tomorrow is church and I can't wait to hear the word of God. I need something help me make it back the first week of school.

The first day of 2010

Today has been a good day. I woke up about 9:30 and it was so nice. I have not done much today. I have been a lazy person. That is really bad. Donovan has been a pill today. He will only wear his boxer shorts and a tshirt. What is wrong with him? He is such a cutie.

I got online to watch the Cotton Bowl Parade. Stephanie's school was marching in the parade today. I watched the streaming online, but didn't realize that Stephanie was in the first dance group. I thought I missed her, but after talking to Stephanie I didn't. That made me feel good. Tomorrow she will be in the halftime show. I can't wait to see it. I hope I see it. It would be nice to see my baby on television.

We finally took the Christmas tree down. Donovan was not liking that, but we left his mini tree up in his room. I think I will make it a theme tree. Since Valentine's day is coming up in a month or so, I will decorate it with hearts. I think that will be nice.

Donovan's room was touched today. I bought some storage bins for Donovan to place his cars in the bin. The toys are scattered all over his room. I can't take much more of it. I did weed out a few broken toys, and papers. Now to weed out a little more.

We are watching my nephew tonight. At first he was crying but now he is fine. He is very attached to Scott. I see a night in the spare bedroom while the boys all sleep in my bed. Lucky me. LOL. I will put some pictures of the evening later.

Last Night

I guess I will post twice for New Years Day. I will post about my time last night.

Yesterday afternoon we went to Scott's sisters house for New Year's Eve. I am really shocked that Scott would want to get out with all the crazy people on the road. We had dinner, and watched the kids play together. It was very nice to just have a relaxing evening. Of course there was a few drinks. However, they were so early that I was able to drive us home by midnight. Just realized I am not sure staying up for the midnight dropping of the ball is really worth staying up for. I might feel different if we were sitting in our house. Oh well.

Here are a few pictures from last night. I am hoping Becca puts some on that she took of Scott and I.