Savings today

Today has been a day. I am upset from last night, but that will have to be another post. However, today I went to the grocery store. I spent less than 100.00 on groceries, and my total savings after coupons was 45.29. I am so excited about that. Also I went to half price books to sell back some books. I made 20.00 that I placed in the Disney Savings. As for right now I have 35.00 in loose change and selling things. Of course Scott and I are putting money aside, but I more into how much I can put aside from savings. I hope all goes well.

Back to the Grind

Today was our first day back to work from Spring Break. I was so tired, but that is ok. The kids were actually pretty tame.

We had a PBIS meeting today, and I try to stay positive. It sometimes is really hard. I know we can't change everyone, but we only change ourselves. I try very hard to remember that. There are a lot of issues that I need to bring to Vicki's attention. I will do that in an email. I know there is a lot going on with the budget that will effect next year, so I think an email will be good. I figure if she wants to talk about this Vicki will let me know.

Today I picked up my little Bubba. He was sitting at the picnic table. I could tell he was upset and had possible gotten in trouble. I asked him what happen. All he told me is that Ms.Wright told him to put his head down on the table. I asked him if he hit anyone. He said no. I asked him if he pushed anyone and he shrugges his shoulders. So of course I assume that he has. When Ms. Wright comes back she tells me that he was walking out to the road where the cars come to pick up, and he got mad when he was told no. So she made him sit down. It is just so sad to see my little one with a sad face, but he needed to have a consequence for not listening. I love that little boy.

This evening I found some websites where I can take survey's for money. Of course you have to do so many survey's in order to get the payout. I am following a blog on Coupon Savings for Disney Trip. I love this blog. It is giving me ideas on how to save for next summer. I want to take Donovan to Disney World for his 5th birthday and before he begins Kindergarten. I am saving all the loose change. We will see how much I can save with loose change. Of course we will put aside money, but just curious on how we can save. I am going to keep reading on ways to save.

Well I need to go finish The Last Song and I also need to get some rest. I think tomorrrow I am going to leave work early. What a day!

Sunday Thoughts

This morning has been a good morning. Other than the wind blowing the satelite. I have to go turn it back. This is going to be a long day. It is just so cold this morning. I wish the laundry room was not outside our apartment, but oh well it is.

I hate asking questions to anyone, but I did today and seems to get a yeah why? Well someone made a comment about it. I wondering if not being close to people is the best way to go. There are too many that you have to keep your guard up on. I mean think I keep my guard up with Scott's family more than my own. I mean I can't understand their concept of family. I am thinking more of his sisters. I mean growing up with only a brother I was so excited to have sister in laws. I thought man the sisters I never had. Well I know why I didn't have them. I think I will stick with what I have. Even though we have no communication.

I think this tension we have with Scott's mother is causing a lot of dislike towards Scott and I. Wait more like me. I am always getting blamed for anything that goes wrong with his family. All I do is agree with Scott and of course all of it started from me. I don't know if Donovan having contact with her is good at all. I mean which grandparent doesn't acknowledge their grandchild at all. Karen. I mean you are pissed at Scott and I. Wait let me rephrase that me. I guess this is bothering me now, because my friend Leslie and I were talking the other night. I told her when we started the One Month to Live series, I made my apology to Karen. However, I don't know if I want to apology to her now. I mean I still can't figure out why she is pissed at me. Well only because I speak my mind. Thank God for my mother teaching me not to let others step over you. Besides on this case I do agree with Scott.

Family...why is it so difficult to be in one. My family doesn't live here in Texas. I am starting to think at times that is a good thing. However, I do miss them.

Great day

Today has been a very relaxing day. I just wish there were more hours in the day. It would make things so much easier today.

This morning I was in so much pain. I guess from working out last night. I took a break from The Biggest Loser. Scott made breakfast today. It was nice to sit in the living room and hangout with Donovan today. He is so funny and cute. Gosh, I love that little stink pot.

This afternoon I had my orientation for Cypress Assistance Ministry. I want to volunteer this summer so I thought it would be great to go to CAM. I told them I would like to start the week after next due to the fact that I am returning back to school after Spring Break. I can't wait to start volunteering and helping others. It will be very rewarding.

This evening Scott came to church with Donovan and I. I usually don't go on Saturday but Scott said he would go with us. It was a prayer answered. I was so glad to have him come with us. It was nice to do something like church as a family. I think he enjoyed it. I know I did. Too bad that the electricity was out, but that is ok. The service was awesome. I loved it. After church we went out to eat. We went to Ruby Tuesday's. It is not somewhere I would go again, but it was nice. Donovan did a great job of eating his food. I told him he was making a happy plate. Do you know what that little stinker did. He used his cut up sandwich for the eyes, and the nose. Then when with his two french fries he made a happy face. He said there momma, happy plate. What a cutie!!!

It is so cold here in Houston. Oh my word, I thought we were going to get blown over by the wind. It is 40 something degrees right now, and can hear the wind blowing outside. What a chill tonight. I hope Monday doesn't start off like this. I hate cold weather. Cool is one thing, but cold is another.

Oh well...off to try to finish The Last Song. I really do like it just haven't had time to read.

The Zoo

Today Donovan and I went to the zoo with some friends. It was actually pretty nice for the most part. I loved seeing Donovan's face when we went. He is so funny. We saw most of everything. We got there about 9 am, and left at about 1 pm. It was a long day for me. I was so tired. I have to make sure that on Sunday I go to bed early. Here are a few pictures from our outing today.

Donovan and I had a great time today. He walked a lot, and got upset many times, but that is ok. He can do that. He was also very tired. We have been on the run all week. I know Saturday we are staying home and relaxing with his daddy. I can't wait for the summer so I can stay home with my little one. We are going to have a lot of fun.

Monday..Spring Break

This morning I actually slept in till 8:45. I mean how often does that happen. I think my body is finally catching up with all the sleep I have not been getting. I have been staying up to finish books. I need to find a happy medium.

My sweet boy Donovan played in the house today. We read a few books, he used his Tag Jr. and it read to him. He loved it. I will have to give him the other two books. He really loves dinosaurs. One of the books I have from him is a dinosaur book.

Donovan and I made it to the library today. They had reading day. The librarian was reading "Where the Wild Things Are" Of course this is my all time favorite book. They had two of the characters of the book. The Wild Thing and Max. Donovan loved it. It was great to hear the story during storytime. I think I will try to do this more with my little one. It was just nice to share this time with Donovan. I can't tell how great it was. Donovan loved playing musical chairs. We didn't win, but that is ok. He had a great time.

I am sitting here just thankful for Spring Break. I found out my daughter who is 18 is going to San Antonio with some friends. I am a little worried. I mean I hope her father knows what he is doing by letting her go. I will just say a lot of prayers on Wednesday.

Opinions

Oh my word. This dumb women really pissed me off today. I will call her JT. JT posted a link on facebook today about breast feeding. She feels that you should be able to breast feed in public. I am ok with her opinion. However, I disagree. I think that is something private. From my understanding that is a bonding time for mom and child. Well her horrible friend started to let me know that some people think it is disgusting. As this reply between the two us kept going on she let me know or stated that I said it was disgusting. I said no such thing. Then she made a comment that I was not offended by a man jiggling he junk. I don't even know where that came from. I thought we were talking about breast not junk. Anyways, I made sure to say that this is something that will be debated for a long time.
Well JT's friend made me so darn mad, I called her friend a "bitch". I know I should not have said that, but I hated being on the defense because I should be the one who decides what my son is exposed to. I mean they made it sound like I wanted them hidden away. I said it should be done discretly and in an area designated for them. She then says I said the bathroom. I never said that, besides that is disgusting doing that in the bathroom with a child. Oh my word.
I wish I would not let my temper get the best of me at times, but good grief. It is an opinion and to put it down is stupid. I let her know that. I also let JT and her dumb friend that I appreciate them making me feel like crap. I mean that is what we need more women putting down women. Good grief. If I could of slapped her or punched her I would of. Both of them. I mean don't post stuff if you know that it will cause problems and you are looking for an arguement.
Gosh why do people get stupid. I am just so mad about this.

Spring Break..Begins

Yesterday was a beautiful day. Scott and I took Donovan to the rodeo. It was actually a great day. Donovan got to see the pigs, which informed us stink. He saw the cows. They were big. He collected several traders cards taht he really enjoyed and it was just so neat to see his face when he got a new one. Just seeing Donovan's face and the fun he was having made my day. He loved the rides, but there was one ride he loved the best. It really wasn't a ride. It was a maze that he climbed through to get to the top. At the top you just slide down. He really loved it. All in all a great day. I would of taken more pictures but realized that my memory card was in the computer. That really stinks.

Here are a few pictures from our rodeo day.

Childcare

I am so tired of hearing others tell me how they don't have a babysitter but they parents always have their kids. Do they really understand not having someone to help you out when your child is sick or just need a babysitter.

Scott and I only have each other to watch Donovan. If Donovan gets sick one of us has to take off. We don't have the luxury like others to call parents or aunts. I mean I am not jealous but wish Scott and I had the luxury of calling someone to help. I mean when I had my c section I had no one to help. I only had Scott and he eventually went back to work. It was hard.

Scott and I pay childcare every week. It starts to add up, but we don't complain because we are so lucky to have Building Rainbows. Unfortunately a few people I know don't have to pay for childcare. I guess I am just frustrated to hear people tell me they know how I feel but they don't. I mean my brother and the mother of his children have free child care from my parents. Part of me is pissed and part of me is glad the kids have my parents. When the kids get sick my parents take off. I have no idea what the parents do but it isn't taking care the of the kids. I just don't understand.

Well I am glad to know that we have no been away from Donovan much. I just would hate to know I missed out on things.

Never think things are going well

I am not sure what to think anymore. I find that sorry is just a word. It has no real meaning to some of the people I come in contact with. I mean if you say sorry for something I think you would try not to do the thing again.
I guess I am trying to figure out what makes people tick. I mean how can you say one thing and do another. I am trying not to say to much, but I feel like I am always getting the run around so I am not questioning things.

What causes people to get addicted to things? I mean I know there are many who are addicted to alcohol and drugs. However, I mean other addictions weather it be shopping, hording,etc. I can't quite figure out how people get addicted. Is it low self esteem. No confidence. I mean what is causing them this. I probably should have some sympathy, but I have none. What causes people do get into bad habits.

I listen to my friends and their issues weather they be with their spouses, family memebers, children at school, parents of children, financial,etc. I wonder how they deal with it. Then I think maybe they are just not sharing.

One friend is unable to be alone. She is in the middle of a divorce. Her husband left her. I have told her many times that she needs to find herself, before she gets involved. However, I think the advice is falling on deaf ears. However, she only knows what is best for her. For me when I finally was away from a relationship, I need to get my life in order. Of course it took me a while, but feel like I somewhat have my life in order. Her first husband had some issues, then her second husband had issues with unmentionable sites on the internet. What made these two men do it? I mean I know they apologized, but it didn't stop them. How much does a person take when it comes to stuff like this.

I know that right now if I didn't have the word of God to believe in I would of already given up. I know my main goal in life is to make sure my children are taking care of. God's word allows me to see this, but there are times I am wondering why is he not working on my husband to see it. You know when things are good things are great, but when things are bad, they are oh so bad. I just want to scream right now. I want to write what I really mean, but I can't.

Another thing what makes someone so mad that they only have revenge on their mind. I mean get mad at me, but don't do something that your actions will get you in trouble. I mean when I get mad, I get mad and eventually get over it. I don't go looking for things that could cause a demise of things. I just don't know anymore. I am sure there is more to come later.